Wide World of WTF?

I finally realize a small part of what Kayla has felt for the past year. Being away from the familiar and the comfortable. I am so thankful that I am here with her, but at the same time I am uncomfortable. I don’t like it. I want to go back to what I know and the friends that I left behind. I want to be back in the military so bad it hurts. I love the job I have because when I get off work at 2pm, I still, pretty much have a full day to do whatever once Kayla gets off work herself. I just don’t have the motivation to go. I know I need to suck it up and deal with it, but I don’t know anyone, I don’t feel comfortable with the people that are there, and I don’t feel comfortable in the house. Ok, well that is a lie. I do feel comfortable, just not to the degree that everyone else does in here. The dog’s are constantly barking and I just want to scream, even though I know it won’t make any bit of difference. The way everyone jokes around here, it makes me so uncomfortable too. The security I felt in Washington and Idaho is pretty much gone when the doors don’t get locked. I am just scared. Obviously if nothing bad has happened yet because of unlocked doors, it probably won’t happen, but I am still paranoid. I am trying, but I just don’t have any motivation, or any actual want to go to this job where I walk around and put dirt in holes on a golf course all day. I don’t even like golf. I hate it. Kayla’s dad keeps saying how if he takes me out to golf, that I will like it, but I know I won’t. I have no interest. My interests: Video Games, Firearms, and Motorized vehicles. I have tried golf before and I hated it. I realized that I have probably done it to so many people and now know how annoying it is for someone to walk up behind you, and start poking and prodding and patting you on the shoulders and back all the time. I had moved my computer to the living room, in order to be more social and engaged in the family, while still being able to play my games whenever I want, and after a week or two (i dont remember exactly) i have moved everything back in the bedroom so I am away from the touching and the poking. I feel terrible, but it’s also exactly how I feel. I don’t want anyone to be upset at me or feel bad about what I am typing here. But I know someone will. I am just so scared that I am going to fail and everything and everyone that I know will abandon me that I am just coasting along. Trying to avoid everything.

I decided that I wanted a tank, so I went easy mode, and rolled a Paladin. Blood Elf Paladin to be exact. This is the most fun I have had in game in a long time. Strictly dungeon level grinding, and it’s amazing. I challenge, yet also not too hard. :)

My Level 85 Transmogrification Set Shopping List

Judgement Armor (Recolor) - http://www.wowhead.com/transmog-set=404
Mask of Penance - http://www.wowhead.com/item=27790
Justice Bearer’s Pauldrons - http://www.wowhead.com/item=27539
Breastplate of Many Graces - http://www.wowhead.com/item=27897
Girdle of Many Blessings - http://www.wowhead.com/item=27548
Cassock of the Loyal - http://www.wowhead.com/item=27748
Boots of the Watchful Heart - http://www.wowhead.com/item=28221
Virtue Bearer’s Vambraces - http://www.wowhead.com/item=27489
Life Bearer’s Gauntlets - http://www.wowhead.com/item=27457
Netherfury Cape - http://www.wowhead.com/item=28371
Slayer of the Lifeless - http://www.wowhead.com/item=39344
Shield of Impenetrable Darkness - http://www.wowhead.com/item=28606